I once told my therapist
I wished there was a pill to make the suicidal thoughts go away
And she replied
‘If there was, would you take it?’
And it startled me to think she was right
Somewhere along the way my disorder overtook my personality
I don’t know who I am without this all-consuming sadness
It isn’t until I started looking for the old Me
That I realized it might not be there anymore

D.D. (via beschaedigung)